My Journey

I remember being very intuitive as a child. It seemed there was always an incongruence between what I could feel and observe – and what people around me were telling me I should believe. The words being said did not match the actions and behaviors. Not to mention me as a small child feeling all the feelings swirling around (unexpressed) underneath the superficial keeping up of appearances.

On the one hand I was encouraged to “be yourself” – but only within the parameters of the “Leave it to Beaver” illusion. I was not allowed to express my feelings and opinions that were incongruent with that façade. I always wondered, am I the only one who can see through all this?

The Presbyterian Church was a real head scratcher. There I heard how God is love and how Jesus was spreading the message of love. Yet this religion somehow justifies so much hate against others. How can a God of Love be okay with waging wars “in His name?”

As a woman I yearned to express my creativity and revel in and explore my feminine expression. Yet, trying to do so in a patriarchal society that doesn’t honor the feminine energy turns it into shame. I often felt objectified, stifled, and I became very angry!

To cope with all this, I began to isolate. To detach myself from a world I didn’t feel comfortable in, I turned to drugs. I became bulimic. In seeking treatment for my drug addictions I found another arena in which I felt depowered, victimized and stigmatized.

For me, there were several major stepping-stones on my journey of transformation. The first was when I heard the musical, Jesus Christ Superstar. Jesus was just a man showing us by his example that we all have God potential within us. The second, was when my atheist boyfriend and I munched a whole bunch of psilocybin mushrooms in the mountains one day. Without the brain’s usual filters, I could clearly perceive how everything is energy. The Doors of Perception opened…

Shunning 12 step programs and outdated materialistic science, I discovered quantum physics, the idea that Consciousness is the ground of all being, hypnotherapy, visualization, and other holistic, internal locus of focus avenues for self-actualization. We are Spiritual Beings having a human experience – not the other way around. We can learn how to tap into the quantum field to co-create the life we desire.

It’s my mission to explore and develop our spiritual/quantum self. As we create our personal self-containers of higher vibrational frequencies, (stepping into our Higher Self), we help bring more energy of Love into this Space/Time. We find inner peace.  I invite you to discover the truth of who you really are.